today

the day you piss me off,

the day you gonna regret even after you're dead

*headdesk*

i fucking give up on this so called superflous family!

#5

such expertise i can't stop thinking about it

#4

sigghhh i'm still surviving
well the week went pretty well i would say
quite a lot of excitement
too much excitement actually
what with visitors in the wee hours of the morning
and smuggling cupcakes out the kitchen
fausti would know...lol!
fausti i told you and nobody else!


umm yeahh
fruit basket arranging for mothers day in church
so tiring
met vinod after ages
i think he's still growing taller
totally sucks man


let's wait and see what this week has to bring.

the mere thought of him puts butterflies in my tummy
and now i'm even more confused than ever!

#3

a prisoner in my own house?
no way!
i'm leaving as soon as i get the chance
nobody is ever going to tell me what to do
against my will some more
i am leaving
i've had it with this bullshit.
the minute i start fixing something
another problem comes along.
i've stopped myself too many times
no wonder i'm depressed
trying to please so many people
that don't even care or appreciate the effort!

#2

I really think I am going through depression.
Yesterday I was crying waterfalls for no reason.

No call from Amar yet.
I'm hoping he calls later with good news.

Those people that are calling me a liar really need to get their heads straight on.
Like honestly, even if I did lie what the fuck do they care anyways
as if they care so much about me.
The most they're gonna care when I'm gone is
there's gonna be 1 person less to bitch about.

Tomorrow the results for the local uni application is coming out.
I really don't want to go miles away from home
in some rut where there's nothing to do but study.
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Now playing: Leona Lewis - Forgive Me (Prod. by Akon)
via FoxyTunes

the boredom.

So I withdrew from my course in college.
And I wasted my parents' money.
And everyone's efforts.
Not to mention the disappointment I brought on a few people.

I am sorry but I stick with my decision.
Amar is trying to get me that job
or so he says...

I deleted my previous blogs because I don't want to be
that old Jessica anymore.
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