#13

so i had my bubble burst a few weeks ago

i really really REALLY wanted to name my son riddick
like vin diesel from the chronicles of riddick
cuz he kicked major ass in that movie

and just the other day it struck my
that if i name my son that, he's nickname is going to be dick

and really, i'm not gonna put a child through that abuse.
so that got me thinking about baby names

here's a list i made:

Alezae (like the liquor - for a girl)
Dawn (girl)
Dusk (lol, boy? middle name perhaps?)
Savannah (girl)
Scarlette (like a little Scarl, lol girl definitely) (Heart Scarlette) :)
Tierrainney (pronounced Tyranny, for a girl) *i so love this name*
Pheonix (unisex, i suppose)
Marquess (boy)
Pazuzu? LOL no kidding, i'll be scared for life!
Aubrey (girl - but it reminds me of aubergines)
Aubriana? lol
Lorelei (girl)
Hazel (girl)
Blaze - boy, Blaise - Girl
Havana (girl)
Orion (boy)
Gunner (boy) lol
Alexander, i really like the name Xander (boy duhh)
Trinity (girl)
Hunter (boy) *no, no Huntress, lol*
Tiara Rose (girl)
Zestrina (girl)
Royal (boy)
Maverick (boy)
Severin (boy)
Tristan (boy)
Raven (unisex)
Autumn (girl)
Dante (boy)
Sierra (girl)
Stone (boy)
Drake (boy)
*i'm so tempted to put Kraken on this list but, ... oh heck*
Kraken (boy)
Morticia? (girl)
Velvet (girl)
Velvet De Vodka *last name here* LOL!
Xenia (girl)
Xenia andXander...woot!
*i'm on an acid trip, humour me will ya!*
Celestina (girl)
Rage (unisex i guess)


omg i wish i have many many children...i love all these names!
lol i want to have children just so i can name them...sighh
maybe i'll start with dogs
or rocks, yeah rocks
i'm gonna go collect rocks and name them
:D
oh wait i already do!



so i was like going through this site with bad baby names...the comments are hilarious

Entry: Pick a name that stands for something.A unique name.If its a boy ,America, if its a girl, Americus.Those are just two names.Liberty.Pick something that makes you and your partner both happy.Don`t listen to other people(I know I sound hipacritical but listen to your heart.

Comment: Oh, dude, you are like critically hip. You're hipacritical!
Now I know it's like criticizing the paint job on the Titanic, but wouldn't Americus be a better boy name, and America a better girl name?

hahahahah! HAHAHAH! hipacritical.
yeah that was a good laugh

x3. does the world mourn with me on this?

i remember being about at least 3 years old
uncle raymond had brought me and julien a present
we were all excited as all children would be
it was a video tape of michael jackson's movie, "Moonwalker"

and like the poster says, it was a movie like no other
i was so hooked on michael jackson
me and julien were addicted to that movie
i remember having to climb on julien's shoulders
to reach up into the cupboard where mom had hidden the tape
we'd watch it every day every hour
until of course the tape was completely useless
and that was my first michael jackson experience

after that there were all his concerts on tv
his music videos that me and julien would dance to
me and julien would play games that were somehow related to michael jackson
it was like we were on an acid trip with michael jackson

michael jackson's music is a fine example of timeless music
i used to listen to spice girls and backstreet boys
i hate them now
but michael jackson is still one of my favourites
timeless indeed

i went to bed early this morning at 5.
at about 9 i get an sms from marissa saying michael jackson is dead.
despite the sleep deprivation, i make my way towards the tv and turn on cnn
and true enough that's what the headlines read
'Michael Jackson is Dead'
then there was this hollow empty feeling inside me
and i started tearing.

no more than a few tears though because i have told myself
a million times, tears don't bring back the dead
and the dead would much rather be remembered with a smile on the face.

but the fact was still there, he's gone.
just as he was making a comeback at that.

this is one of my favourite photo's of him:
he actually looks human, and pretty decent too.

Youth Alpha's Weekend Away

weekend away was awesome!
still waiting for the legal pics from myra
will post them plus some videos here soon
xx
:)

btw, last friday was just LOVE!
thinking of making it into a weekly routine
lol!

#11

everyone who knows me, knows that i can't be fucked by rumours

then why did is this one sms bugging the fuck out of me.

excuse the language but really

here's what happened. 

yesterday unknown number calls saying hi how are you and just 

started chatting me up and i was really annoyed even before that and 

i wasn't really paying attention to the conversation

then i just said i'm busy now and hung up

today the same person smsed from a different number

it said hi morning. i just sent back who is this

and the reply came sara, i called you yesterday from 012 number

and i sent back 'fuck i don't know you, i don't need new friends'

simple as that, and what does this guy do

here's the reply that came

'hey asshole if a person ask u something pls answer probely ok...u giveing sex2 all boys and talking like fuck...'

excuse me, since when does my non existent sex life involve random retards like you?

and i'm seriously so disturbed by that sms

I AM NOT A FUCKING WHORE!

#10

i've been bored.
dinner with them was good
ahha.
it was good to see them after such a long time
we didn't really do much
we had dinner and then shisha
thats all but it was loads of fun
definitely will be doing it again
when we're all up for it i guess
lol

tomorrow taking the girls from home of peace out swimming
they're so cute and adorable!
lunch plans after that as well

thursday shal home as usual.
shanti's not coming so i'm not sure if i'm going

#9

holidayyyyyy

much needed rest sort of accomplished.

went to fraser's with the family, mom's side.

i have to say i was rather skeptical at first.

then i was like oh fuck it, i'll just go.

and we reached there just in time for lunch.

the weather there was gorgeous of course.

sunny as it was, it was cold!

and i loved every bit of it.

okay so friday, we bummed around the bungalow thingy.

that place is huge, like fuh-reek-king cool.

so yeah after nasi lemak we played some cards.

gin rummy as usual.

as usual, jessica did a jessica and everyone was pissed off.

can't help myself sometimes *grins*

so after cards everyone went to bathe

and dinner was being prepared

dinner was steamboat, lover-ly!

and then some more gin rummy and taboo for supper

slept at like 4-ish after the massive battle

next morning i was woken up by shanti and sam spooning me

i really wouldn't have gotten up if sam wasn't suffocating me

so saturday we wanted to do some activities but ray ray was having issues

so we just spent the morning doing some archery

which was pretty cool except for the massive bruise i got from elbow to wrist

its like i'm deformed or something now

but oh well at least i didn't kill anyone or anything

so after archery we thought of taking the kiddies horse riding

although i must say i was not in the happiest of moods when i found out

that we were going to pay to ride on malnourished horses.

luckily they were closed for lunch so we headed of for lunch

ray ray thought he had the best idea ever and dragged us all to god knows where

to find out that there wasn't any food there so we had to go to this malay place

which was crowded because i think that was the only place with food

in the whole of fraser's hill, god damn!

so yeah malay food, not a big fan

me, shanti, sam and julien sat and one side

the rest of them sat the other side where you only can order nasi goreng

and nothing else which was the reason the 4 of us sat the other side anyways

so out of hunger i ordered nasi ayam kunyit

and i don't know if i was that hungry or what but it was yummy

after lunch ray ray thought paddle boat would be nice but the place was closed

so we went trekking instead, we did like 4 trails in an hour plus

the hemmant trail, the kindersley trail, the abu suradi trail (ray ray said it's a terrorist trail) and the mager trail

after that we just went back

so we went back to the bungalow

we played captain ball and then

flew kites, literally

played pictionary, girls vs boys as usual

endens me and shants went out to get "supplies"

which was beer for the guys

we came back all tired to find that everyone ate without us

that really put us in a mood

so we had dinner anyway

dinner was rasam and sardin and ikan bilis and fried eggs

i know it sounds very plain but in that weather, it was divine

so after dinner guess what?

we played *wait for it* GIN RUMMY!

yeahh all the way till like 4 again

then at 4.30 after everyone was asleep me and shants got out

we went to the pine tree trail which is supposed to take 7 hours long

and is the most challenging one

so we packed food, torch lights, lighters, salt, and a whole load of camping supplies

and we went on the trail

and it was fucking tiring and dangerous and scary

there was no reception on either of our phones and we forgot to leave everyone a note saying where we went

so we went like all the way up and came back down

it's 5km up and then another 5 down

it didn't take us 7 hours really, more like 4

i think 7 hours is when you stop at every plant and look out for the random birds

so yeah we were beat when we came down and had some breakfast

then we went driving a little then back to the bungalow

when we went back we got the screwing of our lives

then shanti got real "annoyed" that nobody followed the plan on saturday

so we made our own and actually followed it

i just wanted to sit down.

everyone was packing and cleaning up

then we left and i fell asleep in the car

woke up in rawang at some curry house for lunch

ate there but i really wasn't in the mood for eating

after that everyone came over here

jerrick is so super cute now

he screams and squeals

he likes talking to jynxie who responds

its just too cute

we played party scrabble here

then *wait for it* GIN RUMMY!!

haha, its the family sport i guess

then we walked appu and jynxie

played in the park with jaydon and jermaine

came home and had roti canai for din dins

then everyone went back home to unpack

i must admit, that was a wicked awesome weekend

oooh we found a 6 room bungalow in fraser's

belongs to ktm meaning we can get it for 100 bucks only

awesome...lol

ok i'm dead tired now and i need to pee really really badly!

xx

#7

i shall call this one my story post. cuz i need to get back into writing shape.

my grammar is getting horrible. i'm just writing for the fun of it. not for it to be published or made into a play or something. just writing to practice writing so bear with me. read with an open mind i guess, and at the end of it all don't make judgements on anyone!

The Untold Story

                There was once a girl, I can't tell you her name yet so we'll just call her P. P had the most luxurious life ever. She was the only girl in her family and was daddy's little girl. Daddy went out of his way to do everything he could so that his little girl had everything she wanted before she even knew what she wanted. She knew she was loved and despite all the attention, she was never overly spoilt and was always humble.

               Time passes and little Miss P grew up. She had many friends who loved her and whom she loved. She had her number of boyfriends in high school but nothing too serious. She knew her limits and she never crossed them. She was a bright student with an ambition to match. She knew what she wanted in life, she set goals for herself and made sure she did what she could to achieve them. Everyone had high hopes on her because they knew she had what it takes to be successful and that she'd make them all proud one day.

               So high school came to an end. P didn't even wait to decide about the future, she already knew what she wanted and was so certain of it that she started college while everyone else was still hanging out and getting temporary jobs. 

             One day, P met someone. We'll call him S. S wasn't the best looking guy P had seen, or the smartest or the tallest either, but something inside P told her that this was the one. With that, P fell down a deep, dark hole called love. Since the beginning P knew that S was not as honest as he could have been but still P loved him with all her heart. P was so sure that S would change someday when he realizes his mistakes and that P would always be by his side come what may.

               What P didn't realize was that she was letting go of everything and everyone around her. She neglected her studies, she neglected her family, she neglected everything but S. Her world revolved around S. S, on the other hand didn't place so much importance on P and almost always took her for granted. P knew this and to her, it didn't matter at all because she loved S with every single fibre of her being.

              Yes, P was being stupid and she knew it. She couldn't, however, stop loving S. S was still everything she could ever need. She'd give up everything just for S. S either knew this and was making use of her or didn't know it. Either way, it was eating away at P's heart and she was not herself anymore. She became depressed but she didn't want anyones help. She became withdrawn and wouldn't talk as much as she would. She drifted far away from God. She'd sit in front of the computer for hours and sit in her room and not come out. She became a different person and people were beginning to notice.

             She still wouldn't tell anyone her problems. She couldn't bear admitting her stupidity. She thought she could somehow fix everything or everything would somehow fix itself. Until today, she is this possessed person not knowing what to do or how to open up. This is the end of the story for what will happen next, I do not know. Although I tell of this story, I am not the author, merely a story teller and I have no say in where the story goes because little Miss P is actually not so little Miss Jessica Hope Divakaran.

The End.