#64

christmas christmas!!
like yay! :D

time to bake cookies
and this year instead of buying wine bottles
for the houses i'll be visiting
i thought of making "cookie mix in a jar"
cuz its original and thoughtful
and also, waaay cheaper than wine :D

but yeah, i got to go out and buy
quart jars and ingredients
ribbons and cards

oh, there's also the shopping!
i sort of started
just bought a few tshirts for myself
and gifts for almost everyone
i've got like 4 gifts left to buy

went to piccadilly's with the boys minus eugene plus don last week
that was fun
its a real pain trying to upload pics to facebook though
i'll put it up on my tumblr perhaps

okay time to go googling for christmas things
=D

#63

i'm really feeling the year end stress now
sheeesh!
especially with this caroling thing
omgosh!
find a small child in 2 days
which parent in their right mind
is going to send their "small child"
with a bunch of teenagers
out at night
late night, to be exact

oh well, i definitely can't find by tonight
i hope uncle charles calls by tomorrow
otherwise, i'm definitely screwed

oh em gee
on top of all this doodle
i have to manage to study
for my 2 dudu papers next week

#62

How to make home-made icing!

Step 1:
show up drunk.


Step 2:
pour out store bought icing into a bowl


Step 4:
Tadaa~!

Step 5:
Realize there's no Step 3, so redo Steps 1 and 2




Step 3:
Mix in extract of choice




Step 4:
Get more drunk



Step 5:
You're done :)

#61

got a tumblr account
cuz its just so much easier to share stuff there
i'll still blog here of course

clickity-click!

#60

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating

#59

stumbled upon this


:)

#58

went to rock cafe after ages
didn't really stayed long
stayed out for like barely 2 hours

oh wells, there's always next time
it was a bit weird with the boys
well too bad for them because
they'll have to get used to it
:)
♥

#57

ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =D

baking chocolate cake with fudge icing in a while
yummy yummy in my yummy
♥

#56

#55

haha haven't blogged in ages
lets see
so many things to say but not here :)

food bazaar tomorrow
omg i spent like twice the amount i'm supposed to
there better be profit from it
then i can go shopping again!

oh yeah, i bought a pair of shoes today
flats not heels
i was so tempted to buy heels but i really needed flats
restraint restraint

finally i can eat food
and it feels good
hey, that rhymed!
ahahaahaa!

phone bill came up to 200 bucks this month
i'm so getting fucked!

#54

Real ass 911 calls!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: I heard what sounded like gunshots coming from the brown
house on the corner.
Dispatcher: Do you have an address?
Caller: No, I have on a blouse and slacks, why?

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: Someone broke into my house and took a bite out of my ham
and cheese sandwich .
Dispatcher: Excuse me?
Caller: I made a ham and cheese sandwich and left it on the kitchen
table and when I came back from the bathroom, someone had
taken a bite out of it.
Dispatcher: Was anything else taken?
Caller: No, but this has happened to me before and I’m sick and tired
of it!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is the nature of your emergency?
Caller: I’m trying to reach nine eleven but my phone doesn’t have
an eleven on it.
Dispatcher: This is nine eleven.
Caller: I thought you just said it was nine-one-one
Dispatcher: Yes, ma’am nine-one-one and nine-eleven are the same
thing.
Caller: Honey, I may be old, but I’m not stupid.

My Personal Favorite!!!
Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What’s the nature of your emergency?
Caller: My wife is pregnant and her contractions are only two
minutes apart
Dispatcher: Is this her first child?
Caller: No, you idiot! This is her husband!

And the winner is……….

Dispatcher: 9-1-1
Caller: Yeah, I’m having trouble breathing. I’m all out of breath.
Darn….I think I’m going to pass out.
Dispatcher: Sir, where are you calling from?
Caller: I’m at a pay phone. North and Foster.
Dispatcher: Sir, an ambulance is on the way. Are you an asthmatic?
Caller: No
Dispatcher: What were you doing before you started having trouble
breathing?
Caller: Running from the Police.

#53

baked muffins today!
muffins, cupcakes, whatever you call them la
chocolate
can't really eat them though
the batter was just divine!
yum yum yum
:D

#52

finally she ate!!!!!
the swelling went down quite a lot
actually its mostly all gone
except just around the piercing
which is pretty cool
cuz my tongue's movement is just limited
by the barbell now

and yes i'm eating
I'M EATING!
i made egg mayonnaise
i wanted to make soft boil eggs
but then they kinda got overdone
they weren't hardboiled
the yolks were still kinda soft
but still it wasn't liquid like i wanted it to be
so i didn't wanna waste
so i just smashed everything up with butter and mayonnaise
taste? who cares i can't tell the difference! LOL
and yes, it goes down alright
not as painful as before
yay but it takes forever la
half a bowl 2 mugs of ice cold water
more than half an hour
fuck the world
fuck the world
but still
few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days

#51

i was reading about tongue piercings
like the aftercare and all that
i came across the cutest article ever!

read it!

#50

i pierced my tongue!!
excitedness!

BUT!
big fat but
it totally sucks now
cuz i can't eat!
i pierced on friday
i haven't eaten anything solid till today
and today is monday
thats like 4 days

my parents don't even know i did it
i've been speaking like a retard
and haven't really been eating
i just said oh i've got a couple of ulcers in my throat
and under my tongue so its impossible to eat

yesterday was horrible
we went to this seafood restaurant for dinner in telok gong
i'm not supposed to be eating seafood
but i was like whatever i'll figure it out there
as usual, i hadn't planned all this
so dinner i was like i'm not hungry, i'll not have rice
so i put like tofu and vege on my plate
the only thing i could eat was tofu
cuz i practically just swallowed it
the vege was a bit difficult so i gave up
then people kept piling up squid and prawns and chicken on my plate
and thank god i was sitting next to jon so i just gave him everything
i couldn't even eat cake
chocolate mud cake
i am so fucking depressed
so bloody fucking depressed

thank god for milo
i'll be passed out on my bed, if not for milo
its like the only thing in my stomach

i tried porridge, not cool
the solids keep getting caught
then i have a real painful time trying to get it out

i keep telling myself its just for a few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days
few more days

this is so not working
oh did i mention, my tongue is so swollen
i keep biting into the sides of it
and it's not exactly helping with the pain

well on the plus side, my tongue hurts so bad
i epilated yesterday and it didn't hurt as bad
as it would normally
haa!

but yeah, getting your tongue pierced just so
you don't feel the pain
from the epilator just beats the cause

once again, i'm wishing for that fast forward button
not so much rewind, cuz i really wanted this
just not the pain
and fuck all of you who said the pain isn't that bad
this has got to be the most painful piercing i have ever gotten
i think its not just the pain
its the fact that i can't eat
I CAN'T EAT!
fuck!

#49

well, i turned 19.
whoopdefreakingdoo
lol, just another day
except i got tonnes of messages, wall posts, smses, calls
and then there was cake
also, i was terribly sick
throwing up the whole night

i cut my hair!
finally, after weeks of contemplation
i did it.
its not as bad as i thought it would be
i actually like it
the springs are back :)

made my own dinner today
lamb sauce, fried potato wedges and pita bread
because i felt like it

i've been looking at foodgawker all day
made me hungry
the whole day
but i didn't really eat anything
because i was too tired and sick
well, dinner time
xoxo

#48

omegle, talk to a random stranger.
i am LOVING this site

here's one of the BEST convo's i've had so far




Omegle
Talk to strangers!
2344 users online
Connecting to server...
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: hey
You: rawr
Stranger: RAWR
You: NO I WILL NOT BATHE YOUR WHALE!
Stranger: WTF
You: hahahahahahaha
Stranger: LETS TEACH THOSE FUCKERS A LESSON
You: LETS!
Stranger: YES
You: *gets a bottle of anal lube*
Stranger: And on our way we will find harry potter
Stranger: and we will teach him all about gang rape
You: *rubs hands together*
You: mwahahahahaha
Stranger: *poops a little*
Stranger: Yes!
Stranger: pst
Stranger: you hear that
You: what?
You: they're here?
You: OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
You: RUN!!!
Stranger: FUCKING
Stranger: DRAGONSSSSSSSSSSSS
You: SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET
You: QUICK! TAKE THIS!
You: *hands you a puppy*
Stranger: *throws it against a wall*
Stranger: Thanks!!
You: SCORE!
You: i think i'm in love
You: hahaha
Stranger: With this kind of attitude
Stranger: the world will be ours
You: we're half way there
Stranger: Yes
Stranger: next stop
Stranger: AFRICA
Stranger: we will build battle mechs
Stranger: and take it over
Stranger: Spears verse machine? Ha!
You: HAHA
Stranger: =]
Stranger: You will always be remembered, as Duncan
Stranger: the greates hero and friend
Your conversational partner has disconnected.


I shall now be called Duncan!

#47

I Want To Be Six Again

To Whom it May Concern:

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult, in order to accept the responsibilities of a 6 year old. The tax base is lower. I want to be six again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think it's the best place in the world to eat.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make waves with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money, because you can eat them.

I want to play kickball during recess and stay up on Christmas Eve waiting to hear Santa and Rudolph on the roof.

I long for the days when life was simple. When all you knew were your colors, the addition tables and simple nursery rhymes, but it didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.

I want to go to school and have snack time, recess, gym and field trips.

I want to be happy, because I don't know what should make me upset.

I want to think the world is fair and everyone in it is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

Sometime, while I was maturing, I learned too much. I learned of nuclear weapons, prejudice, starving and abused kids, lies, unhappy marriages, illness, pain and mortality.

I want to be six again.

I want to think that everyone, including myself, will live forever, because I don't know the concept of death.

I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want television to be something I watch for fun, not something used for escape from the things I should be doing.

I want to live knowing the little things that I find exciting will always make me as happy as when I first learned them.

I want to be six again.

I remember not seeing the world as a whole, but rather being aware of only the things that directly concerned me.

I want to be naive enough to think that if I'm happy, so is everyone else.

I want to walk down the beach and think only of the sand beneath my feet and the possibility of finding that blue piece of sea glass I'm looking for.

I want to spend my afternoons climbing trees and riding my bike, letting the grownups worry about time, the dentist and how to find the money to fix the old car.

I want to wonder what I'll do when I grow up and what I'll be, who I'll be and not worry about what I'll do if this doesn't work out.

I want that time back.

I want to use it now as an escape, so that when my computer crashes, or I have a mountain of paperwork, or two depressed friends, or a fight with my spouse, or bittersweet memories of times gone by, or second thoughts about so many things, I can travel back and build a snowman, without thinking about anything except whether the snow sticks together and what I can possibly use for the snowman's mouth.

I want to be six again.

Author Unknown

#46

well yesterday i did something i should have done long ago
while it happened i actually felt a little better
come morning, i was feeling guilty
honest question: what do you do in a parasitic relationship?
p.s. i really don't wanna let go



----------------
Now playing: Jackson Browne & Marc Cohn - Crazy Love (acoustic)
via FoxyTunes

#45

went out with eugene, arunn, mervyn and theyson last night
it was fun
i had beer after such a long time
without throwing up at that
had carbonarra something and chocolate ice cream
with whip cream and cherry on top
they left the wafer out for some reason
oh yeah, it was piccadilly's
beers, i'm back baby :)

#44

This is a list found on the Internet about the things that women really love. Well, like most things that women claim to want, they bear no resemblance to what they really want. The problem with these lists is that they forget to add the second line that explains what happens when they actually get what they ask for. Luckily, because I'm a cold-hearted cynic, I've taken the time to do just that.

1. Getting kissed in the pouring rain.
And then developing pneumonia because you were too stupid to use an umbrella.

2. Have that one hot kiss where you're pressed against the wall.
And then pressing charges for sexual assault.

3. Have a guy that thinks you're the world.
Because men who think about anything other than you are obviously unfaithful!

4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs.
Nothing beats a collapsed lung, right?

5. A guy that you don't have to be with 24/7 to know that he loves you.
Because you had a special microchip embedded into his feeble brain to control him with.

6. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
And then dies of dehydration because tears are saltwater and you cry an all the time!

7. A guy who tells you that your smile makes everything better.
Sure you cheated on him with an entire football team, but just smile and everything will be better.

8. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window.
Regardless of musical incompetence and uses an accordion.

9. A guy who squeezes your hand.
And because of this you develop premature arthritis, yay!

10. A guy that says he loves you and means it.
Aside from the guys that say "I love you" and mean it as a punch line.

11. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
Even if you were screwing his best friend and brother at the same time.

12. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
Even when it's covered with puss-dripping zits.

13. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
What could possibly beat getting a migraine from your a tone-deaf boyfriend as he bellows Snoop Dogg's "Trust Me".

14. A guy who stands up for you no matter who he is against.
Especially if you're in trouble with the Mob. Just hope he hasn't seen Scarface.

15. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
Then why are you constantly asking to judge if other women are prettier than you?

16. A guy who you can hangout and have fun with.
Which means that he had better have fun by watching you get your nails done and spend all of his money on handbags and shoes.

17. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
Like when you dump him for that rich doctor you've always dreamed about.

18. A guy that tells you everything honestly.
Because every girl wants to hear the truth when they ask their boyfriend if he thinks they're too fat.

19. A guy that will always let you win.
Even if the girl knows she's terrible at a game she wants a guy to blatantly lie to her and pretend he sucks even more she does just to make her sad ego feel better.

20. Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you.
And since he just finished smoking a huge rock of crack, you get a nice contact buzz.

21. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
You know real tear-jerkers like Debbie Does Dallas, and Backdoor Sluts 9.

22. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable... not hot, fine, or sexy.
The reason he doesn't call you sexy is because you're ugly and you're only adorable in the same way a baby covered in afterbirth is adorable.

23. A guy that is the same when he is with you as he is when with his friends.
In that case you want a guy who is drunk, flirting with every girl in the room, and peeing in your house plants.

24. A guy who will sit on the phone with you when you're sad, even if you're quiet.
Not like it matters as long as you're footing the bill. Why should he use up his minutes to talk to a mime?

25. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
If you can find a guy with such incredibly low standards, go for him!

26. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he's washing your worries away.
But then gets tangled in it and daftly rips out a huge bloody chunk of your scalp.

27. A guy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you.
Like, for instance, when he's taking a huge dump after eating Taco Bell. That's a good time for a call.

Disclaimer: Yes, I know that all people are different, men, women, transvestites, etc. We all have our own different desires and dislikes. Instead of sending me hate mail try buying a sense of humor.

#43

click to see full size image!

#42

I do believe I have stumbled upon the greatest site of all

TasteSpotting!

the food there is just divine.
that is an understatement by the way!

the best part of it is
it's all compiled from different sites
they mostly come with recipes
which is awesome.

also it's not crowded with words
just loads of yummy lip smacking photo's

i feel so deprived right now. lol.

#41

stumbling through some websites
i found these...hhahaha
comment on youtube
and random ad from some motivational poster site.

comment reads oombu da thevidiya mavane...HAHAHAHAHAHAWTF!

this one just makes no sense at all!
i get breast enhancement. i get ringtone.
just not together!
breast enhancement ringtone?
HOW THE FUCK!?
who even....what the....oh nevermind!

#40

you know how when you search in google, a few suggestions show up at the bottom
...
well, ...
look for yourself!

#39

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#38

we have different levels of intelligence
our interests lie in opposite poles
why is this thing so complicated?
and why can't i let it just end

unnecessary knowledge #1:
About 500 movies are made in the US and 800 in India annually.

unnecessary knowledge #2:
A female donkey's milk is closest to human milk.

unnecessary knowledge #3:
It's possible to lead a cow upstairs but not downstairs.

unnecessary knowledge #4:
A pregnant goldfish is called a twit.

okay i better stop generating those
highly addictive.
get addicted yourself here

#37

it's a quarter past 2
2 am that is
freaking can't sleep
everyone seems to be avoiding me tonight
fuckers!
lol

yeah, i tried doing the poison apple from snow white
it turned out pretty good actually
good enough that i put some colour on it.

i'll put a photo of it up soon.
in due time i mean

i'm addicted to downloading stuff on bit torrent now
i just randomly go look and software i don't really need
or movies i have no intention of watching
from pirate bay

pirate bay has to be the awesome-st thing ever!
EVER!

rubandren was having waffle over the phone
i really want waffle now
i had it approximately 4 months ago
i really miss having waffles
another minus point for segi
freaking jail food with no waffles!

i guess everywhere you go there'll be something to complain about la
i complained in sunway
now i'm complaining in segi
soon i'll go elsewhere and complain there too
i can't help it that everything's not perfect right?
:)

not like i'm perfect anyways
but still, my flaws make me
so i'm a perfect me
cuz if i didn't have my flaws i wouldn't be me
therefore, not perfect
which makes me perfect now
=D

will somebody tell me wtf this is???
SOMEBODY?!

#36

THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Innovative
2. Preliminary
3. Proliferation
4. Cinnamon

THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Specificity
2. Anti-constitutionalistically
3. Passive-aggressive disorder
4. Transubstantiate

THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Thanks, but I don’t want to have sex.
2. Nope, no more booze for me!
3. Sorry, but you’re not really my type.
4. Taco Bell? No thanks, I’m not hungry.
5. Good evening, officer. Isn’t it lovely out tonight?
6. Oh, I couldn’t! No one wants to hear me sing karaoke.
7. I’m not interested in fighting you.
8. Thank you, but I won’t make any attempt to dance, I have no coordination. I’d hate to look like a fool!
9. Where is the nearest bathroom? I refuse to pee in this parking lot or on the side of the road.
10. I must be going home now as I have to work in the morning.

#35

tried to draw newton as one of the artwork designs
two words: epic fail

i see it in my head all perfect
but it just doesn't translate very well onto paper
sucks for me!

oh yeah i reinstalled the stumbleupon toolbar on my firefox browser
never again will i be bored
never again will i do anything else either
lol!

#34

Jack is the only son of Awe Schitt and O. Schitt. Awe Schitt, the fertilizer magnate, married O. Schitt, the owner of
Knee-deep Schitt, Inc.
Jack Schitt married Noe Schitt and they had 6 children: Holie Schitt, The twins; Deep Schitt and Dip Schitt, Fulla Schitt, Giva Schitt and Bull Schitt.
Jack and Noe divorced. Noe later married Mr. Sherlock and because her kids were living with them, she wanted to keep her previous name. She was known as Noe Schitt-Sherlock.
Dip Schitt married Loda Schitt and they had Chicken Schitt. Fulla Schitt and Giva Schitt married the Happens
brothers in a dual ceremony.
The Schitt-Happens children are Dawg, Byrd and Horse. Bull Schitt left home to tour the world. He recently returned with his new bride, Pisa Schitt.

Now, when someone say's you don't know Jack Schitt, you can correct them.

#33

This has GOT to be the stupidest ad i've ever come across on facebook

#32

baking chocolate chip cookies again today
cookie dough taste abso-fucking-lutely amazing!
i'll put photo's up on the photoblog!
♥

#31

PHOTOBLOG is up and running.
hopefully i can keep it updated.
well it should be updated thanks to Fundamental Photography
click here to go to my new (and experimental) photoblog

#30

forget the drawing
i'm too random today to draw anything specific

oh bugger me
the cramps are just hideous!

i can't wait for cookies tomorrow
total ownage that recipe!

i've always been this science student
like books were all there was to study
now i'm taking photography and graphic design
very hands on subjects
i'm not terrible at it, i'm just new to professional art i guess
oh well, at least i'm having fun while learning
i would have never imagined myself saying that

hahaha

#29

well finished the 11 designs in time
had to do a little fixer upper in class but that's okay

the apple designs had some issues so yeahh
i'm guessing i can use like 2 or 3 of the 5 i did
not too bad i guess
but i'll obviously design better looking ones
research is due as well

i shall work on my summaries tomorrow

more chocolate chip cookies tomorrow too

lunch...not too sure what i'll fix but nothing fancy i guess
so lazy
and the fridge is barren

well, i'm off to draw now
hope something good comes out of it


bye bye miss mangala,
it was a pleasure!

#28

oh my guy ritchie!
i completely forgot about the opposites artwork design!
now i have till tomorrow afternoon to finish 6 designs!!!
zomg!

i've just been so upset today
i hate how people make up excuses for themselves


okay today i'm going to try and finish up
the opposites and 5 of the apple ones
then i'll have 6 left to do in the holidays
plus photography
i think i'll try the fill flash shots on friday
i'll do the exposure shots later too

okay i can't really type cuz
my head is telling me i have loads to do
and blogging isn't really helping.

owh i found this really cute video
its this puppy lying upside down
its trying to get up but it can't
so its just like rolling back and forth
so cute!
♥

#27

i'm absolutely loving my intro to mass comm class
today's was bring a magazine to class
so yeah we brought magazines
got lectured on where, when and how magazines came about
then just went in front and discussed the demographics
of our magazines then we got to go home
in less than 2 hours

germaine is totally high and random
and she says the wierdest things ever
haha. loves her!

okay so far, i've got photography work, which i'm sort of ahead of time
then there's my graphic design artwork displays
today we got a new assignment
its not much just 2 summaries from the magazine

i've got 2 weeks break
hoping to finish all my work within then

i HAVE to go hang out with levina
she's been down i don't know how many times this year
and i only saw her like once
i'm such a bad child. lol

i just wanna have some gf time
just hanging out, baking stuff
diy spa-ing
stuff like that
so tired of walking around malls

there was the whole genting plan
but i mean i'm just not that into it
so i guess i'm gonna skip that

back to the 2 week break
i have GOT to plan something out
otherwise i'll be lazing around doing nothing
then when its time to go back to classes
i'll be to stoned to get back into the studying mood

of course i have that photojournalism assignment
i was thinking of taking photo's of the streets of kl
that'll take up 1 day, 2 days max
then i'll finish my summaries before this weekend
my graphic design i'll do on one of the days
i want to be properly rested and awake
because everything i've been drawing so far
looks so pre-school

oh yeah, i should review my marketing too
i'm so gonna suffer when it comes to the exams
nothing has been going into my head at all
we'll have to sort that out soon.

i'll probably keep myself busy baking and cooking
before that, i obviously have to go shopping first
weather's been real hot so fizzy lemon drink would be awesome
all you need is fizzy water, lemon liqueur, sugar, ice
okay, enough of that

i have to make freaking tuna sandwiches later

i said i'd go for p&w too
wish i hadn't but diwana really wants me to come
and i wouldn't want to ditch her

i really freaking hate food blogs
especially those with cute looking deserts in it
makes me want to bake
and eat
rawr!

#26

welcome to procrastination 101, we will begin
...
soon!


wow i am so doomed.
i have to get mounting boards before thursday
20% of the course is something
i don't want to just not care about

but honestly why is black mounting board
so hard to find!?


well at least i've cut out my 10 by 10 squares
so all i have to do now is
draw on them
draw what? well i don't quite know
obviously something that's going to give me 20%

oh jesus, i'm fucked

#25

orphan, watched it!

it was awesome!

went to midvalley with rubandren and mervyn
bummed around, got flip flops for ruby
then went to the movie

blood, blood, BLOOOOOD

i'd go watch it again
i'm just gonna add esther to the list of names i don't want any
of my things to be associated with

#24

graphic design
the class i'm gonna spend most of my time on

drawing is definitely not my thing
not this kinda drawing anyway

6 different artworks on an apple?
wtf!

and another 6 on opposites?
in 4 days?

i'm doomed!

#23

whats for supper?
caramelized banana
it tastes so good
but it also tastes unhealthy
lol

oh well, once in a while is okay i guess

i really want to make peach cobbler
found this recipe the other day
looks simple enough
all i need now is to go get some peaches

#22

orphan
i really want to watch it

today's class we were supposed to talk about a book
felt like a book club meeting or something
but it was fun

farah was talking about this book called
the boy called It
it's about a boy that was tortured by his own mother
as a child

really traumatizing the way she explained to class
the things the boy had to go through

best part of it all?
it's non fiction.
yes, it's all true

the book is actually an autobiography
this boy, man now obviously
wrote about everything he had gone endured
and how he had no idea how to behave
towards people

by writing his story i think he helps a lot of people
including himself

here's just some reviews farah mentioned la
it's from amazon.com
just to give you an idea of the book

Amazon.com Review
David J. Pelzer's mother, Catherine Roerva, was, he writes in this ghastly, fascinating memoir, a devoted den mother to the Cub Scouts in her care, and somewhat nurturant to her children--but not to David, whom she referred to as "an It." This book is a brief, horrifying account of the bizarre tortures she inflicted on him, told from the point of view of the author as a young boy being starved, stabbed, smashed face-first into mirrors, forced to eat the contents of his sibling's diapers and a spoonful of ammonia, and burned over a gas stove by a maniacal, alcoholic mom. Sometimes she claimed he had violated some rule--no walking on the grass at school!--but mostly it was pure sadism. Inexplicably, his father didn't protect him; only an alert schoolteacher saved David. One wants to learn more about his ordeal and its aftermath, and now he's written a sequel, The Lost Boy, detailing his life in the foster-care system. Though it's a grim story, A Child Called "It" is very much in the tradition of Chicken Soup for the Couple's Soul and the many books in that upbeat series, whose author Pelzer thanks for helping get his book going. It's all about weathering adversity to find love, and Pelzer is an expert witness.

From School Library Journal
Grade 9 Up?This autobiographical account charts the abuse of a young boy as his alcoholic mother first isolates him from the rest of the family; then torments him; and finally nearly kills him through starvation, poisoning, and one dramatic stabbing. Pelzer's portrayal of domestic tyranny and eventual escape is unforgettable, but falls short of providing understanding of extreme abuse or how he made his journey from "Victim to Victor." It takes some work to get past the poor writing and the self-aggrandizing back matter, but the book tries fervently to provide a much-needed perspective. One of the greater obstacles to healing for males is admitting that they have been victims, especially if their perpetrator is a woman. This author has overcome that obstacle and succeeded in life by such masculine norms as joining the Air Force and receiving awards for his volunteerism. However, while personal accounts of child maltreatment provide crucial information about the realities of childhood, youngsters need insight and hope in order to digest the raw material of abuse. James Deem's The 3 NBs of Julian Drew (Houghton, 1994) is a well-crafted, fictional work that effectively covers much of the same ground.?Carolyn Polese, Humboldt State University, Arcata, CA
Copyright 1995 Reed Business Information, Inc.


so yeah, pretty deep stuff
really traumatizing too
and it being a true story is very disturbing

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#21

some shots i like

Happy Birthday Jynxie! ♥

2 years ago she was so small she could sit on the palm of my hand
now, her head is heavier than she was when i brought her home

time flies so fast.

#20

sometimes i think i expect too much out of people
the result: i end up getting worked up over what seems to be nothing
well it's not nothing to me

i hate it when people don't take me seriously
i'm not some joke to be passed over
honestly, i have feelings too okay

but i mean you learn new things everyday
learn and move on
that's what i'm gonna do now onwards
learn to let go and move on

i'm really stranded on an island of reality in an ocean of diarrhea

it really is that bad

where i'm headed, no idea
lost
rebel without a cause i suppose

#19

we had this bag of chocolate chips just lying in the kitchen
it's been there since christmas

so i decided to bake chocolate chip cookies
something i have never done before
i just randomly found a recipe on allrecipe.com and baked
the thingy said it would make 20 cookies
but i got like 50 big cookies

cookie dough tastes like magic, lovessss
and the cookies taste awesome
even if i do say so myself

photo's here

#18

america's leaving at midnight!
will miss them

well, i've been up to stuff lately

thursday went for orientation in segi college
i must say, it's a pretty good and well facilitated infrastructure
i mean i was expecting it to be a total loser college
but it was pretty good actually
the students however, is a totally different story all together :)

monday i had fundemental photography
interesting as hell, i must admit
i was a little apprehensive before going into that class
because i wasn't really keen on photography
i was excited about the journalism and public relations class but not photography
but during that one class, we were given the study guide which included
the whole lesson plan which was basically nothing except for 8 pieces of work to be submitted
throughout the duration of the semester and that was worth 100% of the class
which is freaking awesome because all i have to do is submit photo's and i mean it's a fun class

and tuesday was intro to mass comm
another interesting class
much smaller class than photography but yeah
the lecturer seems interesting
she already gave us homework but yeah
i'm actually enjoying this homework
researching on a subculture

tomorrow there's marketing, no opinion on that
thursday there's fundamental graphic design, that would be fun

i like how all the subjects are hands on
like there's no long lectures to sit through

i mean one class is 3 hours long with a break in between but time passes so quickly, you never notice


so after 3 days, i noticed that everyone stares at you
and they stare as if they think they know you and they're trying to recognize you or something
so you think they know you and you stare back to see if you recognize them
but then you don't know them, neither do they know you
but they just stare anyways as if trying to penetrate your soul or something
johnny says they always stare, even if you're not new
some segi culture probably, lol

and owh emm geee, i gots a new camera
sony cybershot

and we gots a new bigger tellybox!

yeah i need a new thumbdrive now cuz i never replaced the one that got stolen in sunway

i need to sleep now, it's almost 4 and i need to be up in the morning, i mean in a few hours

#17

What is depression? Is it this feeling that nobody can explain but everyone goes through? I don't think so; if everyone goes through it at some point in life, definitely at least one person can explain it. Never mind what depression is, does every depressed person know for sure that they're going through depression? Yes, there are known symptoms and signs but honestly, who can tell for sure that everyone goes through the same thing when they're depressed?

The problem with depression is nobody knows until its too late. We all like to think nothing is wrong with us. So when we get bitten by the depression bug, we all say its a spur of the moment, I'll be fine by morning, it'll pass like the storm. Nobody admits they're depressed until they're standing on a chair looking through the noose that's hanging from the ceiling. If they're lucky, help arrives just in time; if not, they become everyone's sad tragic loss.

Some people know that they're depressed but they still can't fix it. Reason being, they don't know why they're depressed in the first place. This comes back to how we all like to think we're fine. The truth is, we are all insane to some extent. Some people have OCD, that's madness to a degree; no it's not dangerous, it's not going to get anyone killed, but it is not normal.

Let me talk about normal for a second. Who defines what normal is? Just because a majority of people are a certain way doesn't mean its normal. Take a look at zombie films; the whole town is infected making the majority of people there zombies. So being a zombie is normal now? Its the same as who defines beauty. Beauty is definitely in the eye of the beholder. This only works if the beholder has their own legs to stand on and decide by themselves what beauty is to them and not go with the 'normal' definition of beauty.

Let's go back to depression, you can't tell a depressed person that they're depressed and that they need help. Forcing them to a psychiatrist is not helping them. They need to realize by themselves that they are in a rut and they need extra help getting out of it. Half the things that cause depression are things that we do not want to quit because we don't think its a problem until it's eating away at us and we're so addicted to doing it we can't stop and we don't want to stop because we don't see it as a problem in the first place.

Fixing depression? How on earth do you fix something that you don't think is a problem? Well, it is definitely going to take a lot of willpower. In this time and age, we are all lazy. Everyone looks for prescription drugs to help them out of depression. Prozac anyone? As if a measly tablet is going to tell you to stop being depressed. It has to come out of realization. It takes you to get up off the bathroom floor, to look in the mirror and to stop crying. No tablet can do that. Honestly, how many people can say 'I am chronically depressed and I am going to get help right now!'? Nobody is even going to admit to being chronically depressed let alone get help for it. We'd all like to say 'I'm not depressed' instead of saying 'I'm getting help for my depression'. Why? Simply because we're afraid of what people think of us.

A depressed person can be spotted among the public but only when its too late, only when they've given up on themselves and accepted the fact that they're meant to be depressed. The people that are going through the worst of times are all around us. Yes we all have problems and we learn to deal with them but most of us can't cope with a fraction of all the problems we face. Yet, we keep quiet about it and pretend nothing is wrong. We all wear this smile outside to our friends, to our children and yes, even to our spouses. Nobody knows the burning pain inside, nobody knows the lies you have to tell yourself just so you can get some sleep just so you can face yet another day full of lies.

#16

ookay haven't blogged in bejeebuz years

america's coming tomorrow! yay amedica! AMEDICA!!

yeah i'm not going to the airport
cuz i'd have to get up at freaking 5am which is about the time i fall asleep anyways

so yeah i'll just see them after i wake up, if they're up of course


okay, enough of amedica for now,
i'll definitely be writing about them for the next month or so


tshirt design, i'm meant to work on that
for the dec-12 youth camp
but i just can't seem to get started
i mean i'd finish it if i could do it on photoshop
but i can't draw on photoshop like i can on paper
i'll do it on paper i guess


oh and the musical
ideas: parodies of sweeney todd, my fair lady
i just randomly thought of making fiends and big bunny

making fiends and big bunny would be awesome
like really awesome
i'll wait for some feedback though.

ookay, off to bang keys on the piano!

#15

okay meant to go register at segi today

dad's kinda busy so maybe a little later
i hope

like oh man, i'm so bored at home

my sleeping patterns all messed up too

yesterday i forced myself out of bed at like 11.20
then i was awake and fine till like 2 something
my eyes were watery and my head was heavy
and i really was feeling like i was going to faint anytime
so i just went to sleep
i end up waking up at 6
then i'm awake the rest of the day and can't fall asleep
till like 8 this morning
and now i forced myself out of bed again, its 12.40

sigghhhhh
big plans next week
i wonder if i can fit everyone in my schedule
hmm.

#14

America's coming! whooo!
taste the liberty baby!
hahahaha

next wednesday, i'm so excited
and on thursday, HARRY POTTER ! ! ! !
i'm going with jeyna and probably rubandren
will drag joanna along if she wants to


jon broke his freaking arm
its not that serious but its all wrapped up and he can't use his right hand
it was pretty funny
the screaming, the quiet, the twitching
but its not funny now since i have to do everything for him
sheesh, what a baby!

freaking connection! I KEEL YOU!

#13

so i had my bubble burst a few weeks ago

i really really REALLY wanted to name my son riddick
like vin diesel from the chronicles of riddick
cuz he kicked major ass in that movie

and just the other day it struck my
that if i name my son that, he's nickname is going to be dick

and really, i'm not gonna put a child through that abuse.
so that got me thinking about baby names

here's a list i made:

Alezae (like the liquor - for a girl)
Dawn (girl)
Dusk (lol, boy? middle name perhaps?)
Savannah (girl)
Scarlette (like a little Scarl, lol girl definitely) (Heart Scarlette) :)
Tierrainney (pronounced Tyranny, for a girl) *i so love this name*
Pheonix (unisex, i suppose)
Marquess (boy)
Pazuzu? LOL no kidding, i'll be scared for life!
Aubrey (girl - but it reminds me of aubergines)
Aubriana? lol
Lorelei (girl)
Hazel (girl)
Blaze - boy, Blaise - Girl
Havana (girl)
Orion (boy)
Gunner (boy) lol
Alexander, i really like the name Xander (boy duhh)
Trinity (girl)
Hunter (boy) *no, no Huntress, lol*
Tiara Rose (girl)
Zestrina (girl)
Royal (boy)
Maverick (boy)
Severin (boy)
Tristan (boy)
Raven (unisex)
Autumn (girl)
Dante (boy)
Sierra (girl)
Stone (boy)
Drake (boy)
*i'm so tempted to put Kraken on this list but, ... oh heck*
Kraken (boy)
Morticia? (girl)
Velvet (girl)
Velvet De Vodka *last name here* LOL!
Xenia (girl)
Xenia andXander...woot!
*i'm on an acid trip, humour me will ya!*
Celestina (girl)
Rage (unisex i guess)


omg i wish i have many many children...i love all these names!
lol i want to have children just so i can name them...sighh
maybe i'll start with dogs
or rocks, yeah rocks
i'm gonna go collect rocks and name them
:D
oh wait i already do!



so i was like going through this site with bad baby names...the comments are hilarious

Entry: Pick a name that stands for something.A unique name.If its a boy ,America, if its a girl, Americus.Those are just two names.Liberty.Pick something that makes you and your partner both happy.Don`t listen to other people(I know I sound hipacritical but listen to your heart.

Comment: Oh, dude, you are like critically hip. You're hipacritical!
Now I know it's like criticizing the paint job on the Titanic, but wouldn't Americus be a better boy name, and America a better girl name?

hahahahah! HAHAHAH! hipacritical.
yeah that was a good laugh

x3. does the world mourn with me on this?

i remember being about at least 3 years old
uncle raymond had brought me and julien a present
we were all excited as all children would be
it was a video tape of michael jackson's movie, "Moonwalker"

and like the poster says, it was a movie like no other
i was so hooked on michael jackson
me and julien were addicted to that movie
i remember having to climb on julien's shoulders
to reach up into the cupboard where mom had hidden the tape
we'd watch it every day every hour
until of course the tape was completely useless
and that was my first michael jackson experience

after that there were all his concerts on tv
his music videos that me and julien would dance to
me and julien would play games that were somehow related to michael jackson
it was like we were on an acid trip with michael jackson

michael jackson's music is a fine example of timeless music
i used to listen to spice girls and backstreet boys
i hate them now
but michael jackson is still one of my favourites
timeless indeed

i went to bed early this morning at 5.
at about 9 i get an sms from marissa saying michael jackson is dead.
despite the sleep deprivation, i make my way towards the tv and turn on cnn
and true enough that's what the headlines read
'Michael Jackson is Dead'
then there was this hollow empty feeling inside me
and i started tearing.

no more than a few tears though because i have told myself
a million times, tears don't bring back the dead
and the dead would much rather be remembered with a smile on the face.

but the fact was still there, he's gone.
just as he was making a comeback at that.

this is one of my favourite photo's of him:
he actually looks human, and pretty decent too.

Youth Alpha's Weekend Away

weekend away was awesome!
still waiting for the legal pics from myra
will post them plus some videos here soon
xx
:)

btw, last friday was just LOVE!
thinking of making it into a weekly routine
lol!

#11

everyone who knows me, knows that i can't be fucked by rumours

then why did is this one sms bugging the fuck out of me.

excuse the language but really

here's what happened. 

yesterday unknown number calls saying hi how are you and just 

started chatting me up and i was really annoyed even before that and 

i wasn't really paying attention to the conversation

then i just said i'm busy now and hung up

today the same person smsed from a different number

it said hi morning. i just sent back who is this

and the reply came sara, i called you yesterday from 012 number

and i sent back 'fuck i don't know you, i don't need new friends'

simple as that, and what does this guy do

here's the reply that came

'hey asshole if a person ask u something pls answer probely ok...u giveing sex2 all boys and talking like fuck...'

excuse me, since when does my non existent sex life involve random retards like you?

and i'm seriously so disturbed by that sms

I AM NOT A FUCKING WHORE!

#10

i've been bored.
dinner with them was good
ahha.
it was good to see them after such a long time
we didn't really do much
we had dinner and then shisha
thats all but it was loads of fun
definitely will be doing it again
when we're all up for it i guess
lol

tomorrow taking the girls from home of peace out swimming
they're so cute and adorable!
lunch plans after that as well

thursday shal home as usual.
shanti's not coming so i'm not sure if i'm going

#9

holidayyyyyy

much needed rest sort of accomplished.

went to fraser's with the family, mom's side.

i have to say i was rather skeptical at first.

then i was like oh fuck it, i'll just go.

and we reached there just in time for lunch.

the weather there was gorgeous of course.

sunny as it was, it was cold!

and i loved every bit of it.

okay so friday, we bummed around the bungalow thingy.

that place is huge, like fuh-reek-king cool.

so yeah after nasi lemak we played some cards.

gin rummy as usual.

as usual, jessica did a jessica and everyone was pissed off.

can't help myself sometimes *grins*

so after cards everyone went to bathe

and dinner was being prepared

dinner was steamboat, lover-ly!

and then some more gin rummy and taboo for supper

slept at like 4-ish after the massive battle

next morning i was woken up by shanti and sam spooning me

i really wouldn't have gotten up if sam wasn't suffocating me

so saturday we wanted to do some activities but ray ray was having issues

so we just spent the morning doing some archery

which was pretty cool except for the massive bruise i got from elbow to wrist

its like i'm deformed or something now

but oh well at least i didn't kill anyone or anything

so after archery we thought of taking the kiddies horse riding

although i must say i was not in the happiest of moods when i found out

that we were going to pay to ride on malnourished horses.

luckily they were closed for lunch so we headed of for lunch

ray ray thought he had the best idea ever and dragged us all to god knows where

to find out that there wasn't any food there so we had to go to this malay place

which was crowded because i think that was the only place with food

in the whole of fraser's hill, god damn!

so yeah malay food, not a big fan

me, shanti, sam and julien sat and one side

the rest of them sat the other side where you only can order nasi goreng

and nothing else which was the reason the 4 of us sat the other side anyways

so out of hunger i ordered nasi ayam kunyit

and i don't know if i was that hungry or what but it was yummy

after lunch ray ray thought paddle boat would be nice but the place was closed

so we went trekking instead, we did like 4 trails in an hour plus

the hemmant trail, the kindersley trail, the abu suradi trail (ray ray said it's a terrorist trail) and the mager trail

after that we just went back

so we went back to the bungalow

we played captain ball and then

flew kites, literally

played pictionary, girls vs boys as usual

endens me and shants went out to get "supplies"

which was beer for the guys

we came back all tired to find that everyone ate without us

that really put us in a mood

so we had dinner anyway

dinner was rasam and sardin and ikan bilis and fried eggs

i know it sounds very plain but in that weather, it was divine

so after dinner guess what?

we played *wait for it* GIN RUMMY!

yeahh all the way till like 4 again

then at 4.30 after everyone was asleep me and shants got out

we went to the pine tree trail which is supposed to take 7 hours long

and is the most challenging one

so we packed food, torch lights, lighters, salt, and a whole load of camping supplies

and we went on the trail

and it was fucking tiring and dangerous and scary

there was no reception on either of our phones and we forgot to leave everyone a note saying where we went

so we went like all the way up and came back down

it's 5km up and then another 5 down

it didn't take us 7 hours really, more like 4

i think 7 hours is when you stop at every plant and look out for the random birds

so yeah we were beat when we came down and had some breakfast

then we went driving a little then back to the bungalow

when we went back we got the screwing of our lives

then shanti got real "annoyed" that nobody followed the plan on saturday

so we made our own and actually followed it

i just wanted to sit down.

everyone was packing and cleaning up

then we left and i fell asleep in the car

woke up in rawang at some curry house for lunch

ate there but i really wasn't in the mood for eating

after that everyone came over here

jerrick is so super cute now

he screams and squeals

he likes talking to jynxie who responds

its just too cute

we played party scrabble here

then *wait for it* GIN RUMMY!!

haha, its the family sport i guess

then we walked appu and jynxie

played in the park with jaydon and jermaine

came home and had roti canai for din dins

then everyone went back home to unpack

i must admit, that was a wicked awesome weekend

oooh we found a 6 room bungalow in fraser's

belongs to ktm meaning we can get it for 100 bucks only

awesome...lol

ok i'm dead tired now and i need to pee really really badly!

xx

#7

i shall call this one my story post. cuz i need to get back into writing shape.

my grammar is getting horrible. i'm just writing for the fun of it. not for it to be published or made into a play or something. just writing to practice writing so bear with me. read with an open mind i guess, and at the end of it all don't make judgements on anyone!

The Untold Story

                There was once a girl, I can't tell you her name yet so we'll just call her P. P had the most luxurious life ever. She was the only girl in her family and was daddy's little girl. Daddy went out of his way to do everything he could so that his little girl had everything she wanted before she even knew what she wanted. She knew she was loved and despite all the attention, she was never overly spoilt and was always humble.

               Time passes and little Miss P grew up. She had many friends who loved her and whom she loved. She had her number of boyfriends in high school but nothing too serious. She knew her limits and she never crossed them. She was a bright student with an ambition to match. She knew what she wanted in life, she set goals for herself and made sure she did what she could to achieve them. Everyone had high hopes on her because they knew she had what it takes to be successful and that she'd make them all proud one day.

               So high school came to an end. P didn't even wait to decide about the future, she already knew what she wanted and was so certain of it that she started college while everyone else was still hanging out and getting temporary jobs. 

             One day, P met someone. We'll call him S. S wasn't the best looking guy P had seen, or the smartest or the tallest either, but something inside P told her that this was the one. With that, P fell down a deep, dark hole called love. Since the beginning P knew that S was not as honest as he could have been but still P loved him with all her heart. P was so sure that S would change someday when he realizes his mistakes and that P would always be by his side come what may.

               What P didn't realize was that she was letting go of everything and everyone around her. She neglected her studies, she neglected her family, she neglected everything but S. Her world revolved around S. S, on the other hand didn't place so much importance on P and almost always took her for granted. P knew this and to her, it didn't matter at all because she loved S with every single fibre of her being.

              Yes, P was being stupid and she knew it. She couldn't, however, stop loving S. S was still everything she could ever need. She'd give up everything just for S. S either knew this and was making use of her or didn't know it. Either way, it was eating away at P's heart and she was not herself anymore. She became depressed but she didn't want anyones help. She became withdrawn and wouldn't talk as much as she would. She drifted far away from God. She'd sit in front of the computer for hours and sit in her room and not come out. She became a different person and people were beginning to notice.

             She still wouldn't tell anyone her problems. She couldn't bear admitting her stupidity. She thought she could somehow fix everything or everything would somehow fix itself. Until today, she is this possessed person not knowing what to do or how to open up. This is the end of the story for what will happen next, I do not know. Although I tell of this story, I am not the author, merely a story teller and I have no say in where the story goes because little Miss P is actually not so little Miss Jessica Hope Divakaran.

The End.

today

the day you piss me off,

the day you gonna regret even after you're dead

*headdesk*

i fucking give up on this so called superflous family!

#5

such expertise i can't stop thinking about it

#4

sigghhh i'm still surviving
well the week went pretty well i would say
quite a lot of excitement
too much excitement actually
what with visitors in the wee hours of the morning
and smuggling cupcakes out the kitchen
fausti would know...lol!
fausti i told you and nobody else!


umm yeahh
fruit basket arranging for mothers day in church
so tiring
met vinod after ages
i think he's still growing taller
totally sucks man


let's wait and see what this week has to bring.

the mere thought of him puts butterflies in my tummy
and now i'm even more confused than ever!

#3

a prisoner in my own house?
no way!
i'm leaving as soon as i get the chance
nobody is ever going to tell me what to do
against my will some more
i am leaving
i've had it with this bullshit.
the minute i start fixing something
another problem comes along.
i've stopped myself too many times
no wonder i'm depressed
trying to please so many people
that don't even care or appreciate the effort!

#2

I really think I am going through depression.
Yesterday I was crying waterfalls for no reason.

No call from Amar yet.
I'm hoping he calls later with good news.

Those people that are calling me a liar really need to get their heads straight on.
Like honestly, even if I did lie what the fuck do they care anyways
as if they care so much about me.
The most they're gonna care when I'm gone is
there's gonna be 1 person less to bitch about.

Tomorrow the results for the local uni application is coming out.
I really don't want to go miles away from home
in some rut where there's nothing to do but study.
\\[ i r e a l l y d o n ' t ]//



----------------
Now playing: Leona Lewis - Forgive Me (Prod. by Akon)
via FoxyTunes

the boredom.

So I withdrew from my course in college.
And I wasted my parents' money.
And everyone's efforts.
Not to mention the disappointment I brought on a few people.

I am sorry but I stick with my decision.
Amar is trying to get me that job
or so he says...

I deleted my previous blogs because I don't want to be
that old Jessica anymore.
\\[ n e w b l o g , n e w p o s t , n e w m e ! ]//

anyone that finds this blog interesting, good for you!
I'm not writing for profit
or to gain popularity

what I write, \\[ i w r i t e f r o m t h e h e a r t ! ]//